I dont understand why the moment i started high school...my whole life changed!?!?!?! Every since that very first day of 9th grade my happy perky self has burried deep inside of me and is sooo afraid to ever come out and STAY out!!! I been hurt over and over again. By guys, friends, and ive even hurt myself a few times (not physically). Whenever things seem to be going ok...they just get bad again. First of all... my bestest friend totally dropped me just because two of our guy friends were mad at me. This was the end of freshmen year and thats when i litterally broke! I went into a depression. I just couldnt handle the pain! I get close with someone and i put my ALL into the relationship/friendship but i never get it in return. People dont see how much things hurt me more then they ever even know. I couldnt handle losing so many friends and my very best friend. Now things are just messed up. I dont have a best friend. I dont have someone to be here for me so i can talk about anything and everything with. Things in my personal life take a big effect on my school life. I know i shouldnt let that happen but i just cant stop it. soo when things go bad at home or with friends i just cant focus on any school work and i think u can guess what the negative effect of that is. F! yep i start failing tests and just not giving a crap about anything. Soo im trying soooo hard to change and improve but i feel like i have no one. im afraid im gonna end up along. No friends, no boyfriend/husband, and as more and more of my family members pass away,im afraid im gonna be left with no family either. No matter how much i try to stay positive there is always something to remind me of the bad things that just wont go away! I feel like i need to see a therapis but my mother feels that im just being a drama queen but she honestly doesnt know how i feel!!!!! She doesnt understand me...like most other people. I guess. I dont wanna be like this. I dont wanna feel like this! PLEASE STOP BREAKING MEE!!!!!!
Tuesday, December 1, 2009
Ive been broken again and again!
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Posted by Tue Nov 3, 2009 2:46pm PST
Report AbusePray....and always, always, always hold ur head high you've done nothing wrong. This is only a phase ur going through and before long, all ur so-called friends will be longing 4 ur friendship again....it's up 2 u whether or not 2 accept them.
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Posted by Tue Nov 3, 2009 2:51pm PST
Report Abuseyea i kno how u fel pple r jst fukin ass holes!!!!! sory 2 hear bout wuts goin on wit u tho hun...
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Posted by Tue Nov 3, 2009 8:27pm PST
Report AbuseheLLO good morning have anice today ok
for you health have nice good fine body ok
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Posted by Tue Nov 3, 2009 9:40pm PST
Report Abusefirst of all you are your best friend second of all you dont have to depend on other people. third of all lie is how you want to see it if life seems hard for you then you're life will be hard.....yeah high school is difficult because you're not a kid any more and you have to start loving you and remember people look at you as you see your self
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Posted by Wed Nov 4, 2009 12:53am PST
Report AbuseI now what your going throw you have to just remember people are like assholez everonez got one lolz just love your slef just 2 let you now i dont like high school 2
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Posted by Wed Nov 4, 2009 5:16pm PST
Report AbuseHELLO,
IVE BEEN THERE TO. THE BAD THING IT HURTS LIKE HELL TO REALIZE MUTH f--- ERS DON'T GIVE A DAMN ABOUT YOU, BUT THE GOOD THING IS THRU ALL OF YOUR TRAILS YOU WILL GET STRONGER AND LEARN TO DEPEND ON GOD AND YOURSELF. THE SAME PEOPLE THAT TRIED TO BREAK YOU WILL LOOK AT YOU IN THE FUTURE AND WONDER IF YOU ARE THE SAME GYRL AND YOU WILL BE BUT YOU WILL BE A WOMEN THAT KNOWS WHEN TO STAY AND WHEN TO THROW THE TOWEL IN. U'LL C .
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Posted by Fri Nov 6, 2009 12:51pm PST
Report AbuseI have thought about it but nothing in my life is really THAT bad that its worth ending my life over.
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